7 weeks!

Finally! A number! An amount of time to be able to count down from. I have been waiting a long time for this moment. I received word that the temple prep class will start this Sunday and will be 7 weeks long. At first, I was frustrated. Very frustrated. I have been through quite a bit before these moments, and I just wanted it done already. I was tired of moving, tired of going from place to place, ward to ward, knowing each time we were set back was a hard thing to deal with for me. But after prayer and time to think I am just grateful that I have a wonderful bishop that understands the situation and taking time to make sure it will happen. Everything happens for a reason, and I mean everything. I am grateful, the past 2 years almost, I have had the ability to learn a lot of things, go through spiritual boosts, and also drought. I have learned what an incredible difference life makes when you include the gospel in every aspect. For example, for me I love going to Institute. I know that may be weird for some, but I enjoy it very much. I enjoy knowing I made the choice to be there most of all. I could be grabbing lunch with Kyle, or studying, or face-booking  but I made the choice to take Institute. Unfortunately I have missed about 4 days of it in a row, and I can see the huge difference. It's more difficult to WANT to find the time to read scripture, pray, and in general feel the spirit. I guess obviously I am the type of person that needs something like institute to keep me in check.

I cannot wait to be sealed to Kyle. Kyle is literally my soul mate, and the fact that our love, our marriage can be expounded upon? That is an incredible feeling. I love him so much, I am so grateful for all the experiences, the choices we have made together to strengthen our bond, to build a more firm foundation for our future family. It is very rewarding and exciting. Kyle and I discuss almost every night, how things will change once we are sealed, it's always an exciting conversation. I feel like the next chapter in our lives will REALLY begin once that is done. I have been patient, and impatient. I have been strong, but also weak, at many times. But I always come out stronger, I truly believe. After talking to my bishop this Thursday, I will confirm where I want to be sealed. And lay out plans from there. I want everything to be planned WAY ahead of time, starting this week! No surprises, at least minimal.

I truly hope all the plans I want to make will fall into place. I guess that is my biggest worry. I am very used to things like that being very difficult when they really shouldn't be. The most simplest things have been incredibly difficult to achieve, and 9 times out of 10, they are out of my control. BUT I need to remind myself that I should put my faith in the Lord and let him lead me. Please, say a prayer for me, that everything will be smooth, and stay the course!

These are my thoughts for the month, thank you to those of you who take the time to read this. I am very grateful and hope all of you are doing very well, and wish all the best.


~Katie B.